Creativity

Question Yourself 

  

  For my creative exercise, I chose to grab a book in the class room titled Question Yourself , by Dave Edelstein & I. C. Robledo. At first when trying to choose a question to write about, it became a bit difficult. Any answers I had would be things I wrote in my journal, not on a public forum. Although would I really be an artist if I didn't share something a bit personal ? So the question I chose to write about was "How has lost love affected you?" 

    As a girl who would consider herself to be a hopeless romantic, let me just say I had a lot to write about. Now I won't bore you with the everything I did write, but I will share the parts I found to be important. When love leaves it's easy to feel lost, and some stay there feeling, it's hard to find the strength to come out of it. While there are others who are just strong enough to pull themselves out and continue on. I  have to admit, the first heart break I had really did leave me feeling lost. Time and time again I put myself in these situations that would just end up leaving me there alone, lonely. 

Times I found myself falling in love there was no one there to really catch me and I would fall into darkness, leaving me with that feeling of being lost and lonely. Admittedly I would spend my time there for quite awhile too. Until I learned how to channel those emotions and use that hurt for my art. Thankfully being an art student at the time, I was given so many outlets to use those emotions for something other than pity parties. That's when I learned that lost love doesn't have to be a loss, yet just a lesson learned. 

    Some of my favorite pieces have come from heart ache and dark places. Motivation has come from these places as well, learning to focus on myself. Learning that being alone doesn't have to be lonely at all. This question really made me reflect on all of the things I have created or accomplished because I chose to not sit and dwell. Now I can not sit here and say that it's easy to pick yourself up from when everything around you seems to have fallen apart, but its possible. It takes time to mend anything, healing only happened when I allowed myself opportunities to heal. It's so easy to lean on something, rather than to pull yourself up. Vices are so easy to turn to when all you want to feel is nothing, rather than letting yourself feel it. Because when you love so deeply, you can only imagine how much deeper the pain can be. Thankfully though, that those emotions are only temporary. 

Not only did this exercise challenge my writing skills, it made me realize that telling your story can only help release those harbored emotions. This book made me really think about things that I want to journal about later as well. It's good to have a healthy outlet for these things in your life, from lost love, to trauma from life, or just simply having a bad day. It's not an easy thing to change your way of thinking, but it is possible. The only real limits in life are the ones we set on ourselves, there are so many things that are really in our reach, we just don't believe it so we never get a chance to see it. 

Thank you for reading this blog, and I hope you get a chance to think about how lost love has affected you as well. Hopefully there is something positive that came from it as well.